I know what's wrong, so how do i fix me?

I know at least why I feel empty inside - No one likes me. Literally. Not an exaggeration. Okay, sure, I have some friends, but it's not like they really care. They forget about me a lot and never let me into their conversation, and then when I talk to them about it, they always get pissed off at me. I've tried to make new friends, but i just fail. and then everyone else in the school thinks im a freak. Even my family never listens to me. I'm literally screaming and no one ever hears me. Especially not my friends. I have this empty hole in my heart that is supposed to be filled with another persons love. I just have no one. Sadly, I have only 2 best friends who actually listen, but they live too far away so i only talk to them online. I have no idea what to do. I need someone close to me to care but i have no one. Sometimes I wish I could move to a different state but im only 14 so i can't. Sometimes I love my friends, other times I hate them. Does anyone care to help me??? Please??? Oh and by the way, a shrink is out of the question, i don't want my mom to find out.